Can It Be Over Now?

I just turned in my two weeks at my current job. I find it so difficult to finish out my promise with all the stress. I haven’t had time to even enjoy my days off because of the store’s needs. I am not paid very and the schedule just changed. I have to work 6 days a week now. Thankfully it is only for two weeks I have to meet this requirement.

I haven’t had motivation to clean my house, get into a routine and I can’t sleep very well. My mind wakes up with things to do. I just learned yesterday that I had to cut over 40 hours of help during this week, which is also Black Friday week, that is ludicrous!

I feel like most corporate places now expect more work but will pay or hire less. They expect tasks to take an hour or so when in reality it could take a few hours with the right person. Since when has money and stupidity taken over the world? Unrealistic expectations, short deadlines, unworkable payroll, lazy staff (because they don’t get paid much) and not to mention dealing with customers and helping them, all at the same time.

I took this job because I needed the experience, plus a Store Manager title looks good on my resume. But golly! I really do like retail and also managing, I promise. I understand some of this will come with the turf (don’t get me started on working on holidays), but sometimes I just shake my head and want to scream.

Maybe if we all didn’t bust our butts to get it done the “corporate world” would see how unrealistic they were and backed off a little. Oh you’re right, probably not. They would just say NEXT! I feel like America needs a HUGE wakeup call.

We need to stop outsourcing our jobs, pay people better, give better benefits, respect holidays, religious and family commitments. I think the “corporate world” has got to go. There is no need for CEOs to make hundreds of thousands of dollars by just attending meetings or whatever they do while their employees can’t have healthcare or pay their bills. I respect managers who work in the mud with me. Who help get the job done.

I wish I could change the world and make it a better place. I absolutely hate working. I know it has to be done, so I do it, but I hate it. Why would I want to work almost all my life and miss out on so much time with my family? It doesn’t make sense does it? You work to have a life but you can’t have a life because you work. lol. Bleh.

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Do What You Love- Not What is Popular

Have you ever felt judged because of the lifestyle you choose? I don’t mean romantically or religiously- I mean academically or “lack there of”.

Getting a high school/GED is a MUST for most jobs now adays which is fine. But what about a college, graduate or doctoral level? Does anyone else feel pressured from society at times to just go directly to college after high school? I had no idea what I wanted to do in life and always struggled in school. (I have test anxiety and dyslexia- bad combo) So going to college just seemed like the “right thing” to do and “everyone else was doing it” too.

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I went for 2 years before I dropped out and thankfully I went to a smaller, less expensive school. Still to this day I do not have a desire to go back. I sometimes think I do because it would be fun to but the reality is after the first week- I would be over it. lol

I wish I wouldn’t of gone to college because it just wasted my time and money. If I did do any schooling I wish I would of gotten an Associate’s Degree in a field that I could of been working in all my 20s that would pay better than minimum wage.

When people ask my plans for the future- I feel like I have to defend why I chose this simple lifestyle. I feel like people have the wrong idea about it. There is a stereotype that comes along with wanting to be a farmer.

What do you think about when you hear the word farmer? Do you think of missing teeth, overalls, nasty spit cups, old men, iced tea and rocking chairs?

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Let me tell you what I think of when I hear someone is a farmer.

Someone who is: Hard working, patient, nurturing, loving, kind, compassionate, trustworthy, a great friend, willing to help, dedicated, persevering, honest, uncomplicated, straight forward, neighborly, provider, and the list goes on.

When you do something you love it is hard to try and explain that to someone else. What I might love and how it feels to me is different for you. You could love opening a brand new book, filling in a word puzzle, getting a coffee, writing poetry, lifting weights, getting a new sketch book or a new camera lens.

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I love watching a sunset after the work is done for the day. I love star gazing and the chill of the night. I love it when the animals come running to you when they hear the feed bucket rattle. I love dirty boots and hard work. I love big morning breakfasts, horse back riding, mucking out stalls, cutting and baling hay, growing my own garden and crops. I love hunting, fishing and shooting my guns and my bow. I love throwing on bootcut jeans and a t-shirt.

From now on I will do what pleases my God and myself with my life. I won’t do something just because everyone else is doing it. I will take the time to figure out exactly what I want to do and not rush into things. If you are in that place where you don’t know if you should go to college or not- just think about it. It is your life, no one can live it but you.

 

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